Seriously?!?

This is just another reason why we should remember to only WI once a week at the same time. So this weekend I stupidly went and bought a scale at Target…hey, they were on sale! I though that I could be in control and I wouldn’t be obsessive about it and since I had missed last week’s meeting due to New Year’s so I wanted to see if I had done any damage. Well it showed that I was up every time I got on it. I was up from anywhere between 1.5 and 2.8 pounds! Well this just got me more obsessed to get to the gym but it also made me want to weigh myself 10-15 times a day when I was actually at home…bad, bad!! The whole time I was doing this, the rational side of my mind was saying "its okay, you know your weight can fluctuate throughout the day". But my obsessiveness just took over my brain and I couldn't get past the gain.

To basically get to the punch line here, I went to my meeting last night expecting to see some kind of gain there. I always look at them write down my weight and it looked like she wrote a – in front of the 1.6. There’s no way I’m thinking, so I ask her am I really down? And it turns out I am! Seriously? I couldn’t believe it. Now I’m only 1.2 away from my 10%, and I’m going to work super hard to try to get that next week. Moral of the story: stick with one consistent scale…now I’m bringing it back to get my 30 bucks back!

Weight to date: 241.2 lbs.
Weight loss this week: 1.6 lbs.
Total weight loss: 24.8 lbs.

Exercise is Key

I say it like its something new....but obviously exercise is the key for me to lose weight. Last week I only lost a little and didn't really exercise too much, and this week I lost 1.4 lbs. even with lots of holiday eating because I made sure to get to the gym 3 times. It was actually a surprise that I lost that much because I've really found myself slipping last week and indulging just way too much. I'm getting closer to my 10% though, now I only have 2.8 lbs. to go. My original goal was to make 10% by the first meeting of the year (Jan. 8th) but when I gained after Thanksgiving I didn't think I'd be able to. Now I'm thinking its definitely possible if I work at it. I'm not going to a meeting next week because of New Year's Eve so hopefully by the 8th I'll be able to make that 10% goal!

Weight to date: 242.8 lbs.
Weight loss this week: 1.4 lbs.
Total weight loss: 23.2 lbs.

Missing my Meeting

Well I lost 0.6 this week. I had to go to weigh in on Monday because I wasn't going to be able to make it on Tuesday. I got lost on the way there since it was in another town, so I was all flustered when I finally got there 20 mins late. I weighed in and was a little disappointed my the 0.6, honestly I thought I'd at least get a pound. I didn't even feel like staying for the meeting...it wasn't the same anyway since its not my meeting with my leader. Oh well, I have to tell myself that a loss is a loss right?? I'm going to have to go to a Monday meeting next week too since Tuesday is Christmas. But I'll be going in CT since I'll be home there for Christmas. And I'm also going to have to go Monday before New Year's....bummer. January 8th is the next meeting I'll be at that's my real meeting. I don't like the change because I'm used to the leader and people at my meeting, that's what makes it a good meeting to me.

Weight to date: 244.2 lbs.
Weight loss this week: 0.6 lbs.
Total weight loss: 21.8 lbs.

Addicted?

Even with two holiday parties this past weekend I was still down 1.2lbs at weigh in last night! I was pretty excited about this since I only went to the gym twice and I usually do three or four times a week. It was hard, after my work party on Sunday I didn't want to go to the gym, all I wanted to do was go home, put on my PJ's, and watch movies (at 2pm, lol). And that's exactly what I did (well after about an hour of Christmas shopping). Its been harder for me to get motivation to go to my new gym because I just loved the old one so much. I've been thinking that if I don't like the YMCA after about a month I may change back to my old gym (which was a great all women's gym), but it is really expensive there and the prices are going up after the first of the year. I managed to get to the gym on Monday, and I must get there tonight because I'm going to be taking probably Friday and Saturday off since I'll be away.

I'm also really trying hard with the food. It seems like everywhere I go there's something to tempt me. Today at work they had a happy holiday breakfast to thank employees for their work. Well I had eaten my yogurt and fruit but my coworker asked if I wanted to go to the breakfast. I said I would just go over there for the walk and then I ended up eating 4 slices of bacon! That's 5.5 points people. I just feel like so much of the time I have no self control. I wish I could eat like a normal person and not be thinking about food all of the time. Before WW all I could think of was the junk I was going to eat next, and now in WW all I can think about is planning my meals, and how many points are in a certain item. Sometimes I feel like an addict with the food, I just can't stop. But with a drug/alcohol addict at least they can give up their vice. You obviously can't give up eating or we'll die. Its really hard to find that delicate balance but I'm working on it and since starting WW I have gotten better at it.

Weight to date: 244.8 lbs.
Weight loss this week: 1.2 lbs.
Total weight loss: 21.2 lbs.

Back in the Game

I'm getting back on track after that disappointing Thanksgiving gain. I ended up losing exactly the 2 lbs. that I gained so I'm back at a 20 lb. total loss. I thought this was pretty good because I joined a new closer gym last weekend, and didn't exercise much at all...I'm not really sure I like the new gym but its $15 a month cheaper than my old gym. Also, it was my time of the month and I felt really bloated. I'm sure I was retaining some water so I'm hoping that next week I'll have a good loss. This weekend I have 2 holiday parties, so it'll be a challenge to make sure I stay on plan and really get the exercise in. I'll be going to the gym tonight and I'm committed to working hard to earn those extra activity points.



Weight to date: 246 lbs.
Weight loss this week: 2 lbs.
Total weight loss: 20 lbs.

Disappointed After Thanksgiving

Well last night was disappointing, I gained 2 lbs. I sat at my meeting and wanted to cry, this just hasn't been my week (I also found out I didn't get accepted to BU for grad school). I know I ate more than usual but I did exercise everyday so I thought I'd at least stay the same. I couldn't even talk at my meeting because I was so upset about everything. To make matters worse I went and got a sandwich from Panera for dinner. I had 20 points left for dinner so I wanted to use them up (the sandwich is 18 points), but I know there are a lot healthier ways to use my points.

Last week at the meeting we wrote our goals for the new year, and mine was to be at 10% by the first meeting of the new year which is January 8th. Now I have 8 pounds to lose to be able to do that. That means I have to average 1.6 lbs a week to do this, no gains, no staying the same. I'm still going to work hard at this, but I really hope I can do it. **Sigh** I know I shouldn't have this defeatist attitude and that I need to accept that gains are part of the journey but when you're actually in the situation its really hard not to feel disappointed. I just need to get past it, this week is a fresh start and new week.

Weight to date: 248 lbs.
Weight loss this week: + 2 lbs.
Total weight loss: 18 lbs.

Down more!

I forgot to post last week after weigh in. It was a really good one, down 4 lbs!! That was supposed to be really encouraging for me going into the Thanksgiving holiday, but I think I ate way too much. We'll see tomorrow at weigh in. **Crossing fingers**


Weight to date: 246 lbs.
Weight loss this week: 4 lbs.
Total weight loss: 20 lbs.